{"id":194,"date":"2011-04-15T05:09:00","date_gmt":"2011-04-15T05:09:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/?p=194"},"modified":"2011-04-15T05:09:00","modified_gmt":"2011-04-15T05:09:00","slug":"194","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/?p=194","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It was a struggle.  I forced myself to sketch a couple different versions of the image I had in mind and only kept the one that came out easily.  It was also the drawing most pleasing to my eye.  The struggle was getting back into a hobbie I so greatly adore and having it be hard again.  I had to remind myself that it is to be expected, I haven&#8217;t sketched in two years, after all.  Well this strange feeling started from that little moment.  I realized it is becoming easier, in many ways, to balance my domestic life and my personal life.  In many regards I have stopped wrestling with the idea that my choice to be a stay at home mom colids and destroys so much of me&#8230; I have realised it was all just waiting and I only need to pick up the good stuff.  Interestingly enough though I have also noticed through out all this that I am so much more happy in my role.  I adore so much about my peaceful place at home (peaceful being more about me then in relation to sound and activity&#8230; there is plenty of sound and activity).  I used to say &#8216;I LOVE BEING A STAY AT HOME MOM.&#8217; and there was a bit of grinding teeth determination behind it&#8230; because I knew it was the right choice for me&#8230; but know I don&#8217;t just know, I really think I can see it.  It is all coming together&#8230; I quite enjoy being a stay at home mom.<\/p>\n<p>TTFN<br \/><!--Session data--><\/p>\n<div><\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It was a struggle. I forced myself to sketch a couple different versions of the image I had in mind and only kept the one that came out easily. It was also the drawing most pleasing to my eye. The struggle was getting back into a hobbie I so greatly adore and having it be [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[1],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/194"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=194"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/194\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=194"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=194"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.ladymacblog.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=194"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}