Archive for May, 2010

Learning From You

Oh Baby Boy, I learn so much from you as I do from all my kids. Lately I have been learning to find the good rhythm in life. Your rhythm is always JOY. You take great joy in everything and we affectionately call you ‘our personal musical’ for a reason. Life is a musical to you, a singing and dancing show! If you see a car you make a ‘rrrrmmmm‘ noise and then proceed to break into a ‘rrrum da da da dum‘ song and so with anything else that your eyes devour you turn your excitement into song and dance. If you find your own song, or someone elses, right on then you can’t help but kick your legs out in your very manly little dance. You are a ‘funk’ music lover and it suits you.

A person must slow down to work on their personal sound track all the time. I remember as a child picking songs that would be perfect played over my life at such and such a moment and then I would sing them and you remind me of me in this way. Thank you for reminding Mommy of a good piece of herself and thank you for being you!

TTFN

Romans 12:18

If it be possible, as much as in you lieth, be at peace with all men.

Time and time again Christ reminds me that he is my reputations protector and that I can’t control how people feel about me. There comes a point where obedience to Christ must come before pleasing men.

It is hard for me to swallow this… I hate to fail people or to have them feel I failed them, especially when I love them so much… I have learned pleasing people often becomes dangerously close to an idol in my life… and I need to put Christ ahead of that too! I also know this will be a process for me but if I really love others I will never again put their relationship with me ahead of my Lord, for their sake and for mine…

Even today the above verse came to mind as a wound threatened to burst. I used to see it as a further reminder that I must be doing something wrong because there are some who just aren’t happy with me but then my man reminded me about the ‘as much as in you lieth.’ I see that if I find peace with people that is what lies with me…to find the peace and hold onto it. Even if their anger remains I can’t control it but instead must love that person enough to take it all to the feet of Christ for I can trust my friend in his care… May my sorrow at the remaining anger not affect my response to them when they in turn find Jesus Christ’s healing. Love hopes.

TTFN