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To Remember April
Late March our provincial government announced libraries were no longer necessary (contrary to sound stats and research). April arrived with promise of difficulty. It was a month I had hoped to celebrate being back at work for 1 whole year, and in my dream job too… small town librarian, after a 15 year break! Instead it was a month of fighting for my job and my children’s right to learn freely and enjoy community freely.
I am just going to put a couple posts here that I wrote but didn’t share on my blog. I was very emotional through it all but now I think I will want to remember this time.
Does Life Foreshadow Eternities’ Satisfaction?
Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, And light unto my path.
~Psalm 119-105 (ASV)
After an incredibly relaxing morning with the family I reflected on how often my hopes don’t appear to line up with my determination to be surrendered completely to God’s direction and purpose in life. Of course the mystery for me is that often this has indeed proven to not be the case, and a heart desire ended up being completely fulfilled in an unexpected way as I trusted in Christ Jesus and lived in him. That being said, the ache is real until one knows, until one clearly sees. With this preliminary explanation I now direct you to my slightly overly poetic musing below.
Walking on Painfully Aware
It is better to go to the house of mourning than to go to the house of feasting: for that is the end of all men; and the living will lay it to his heart.
~Ecclesiastes 7:2
The Poodle
“Animals are such agreeable friends – they ask no questions,
they pass no criticisms.” ~ George Elliot
Pets can be the best balm for a hurting heart.
Consider this my formal blog announcement that we did add a third furry friend to the family this year. Her name is Persephone and we adopted her this summer past. She is the exact dog I have always called my dream dog… well, if my dream dog had been put in the dryer too long. She is a purebred miniature black poodle. I have always wanted a standard poodle for bird hunting but this little lady will do just fine in every other pet aspect as I plan to explain further.
Christmas Still Comes Every Year
Join in the chorus, sing to the baby
Sleeping beneath the stars that he made
Light in the darkness, hope for the hopeless
His love will never fade away
Heaven came down to earth to bind our wounds and wipe away our tears
~JJ Heller (Christmas is Here)
‘You are Loved’ seems just right…
“I thought I could describe a state; make a map of sorrow. Sorrow, however, turns out to be not a state but a process.”
~C.S. Lewis (A Grief Observed)
Even when you have mourned the death of a loved one before the whole processes is very confusing for you. Each and every individual person who dies leaves a unfillable hole in your life… their being and mass once took that space up and it will never really be filled again in this life. Mourning will appear familiar and completely new with each unique person you say farewell too. It can be hard to know what to say to someone who is dealing with death front and center, but perhaps it helps to know it is very foggy for them too.
Thanking God The Dishwasher Broke!
9 Let love be without dissimulation. Abhor that which is evil; cleave to that which is good. 10 Be kindly affectioned one to another with brotherly love; in honour preferring one another; 11 not slothful in business; fervent in spirit; serving the Lord; 12 rejoicing in hope; patient in tribulation; continuing instant in prayer;
~Romans 12: 9-12~ (Authorized KJV)
I recall a line from a quote, meant to be inspirational, that goes something like this, ‘be grateful for dirty dishes for they mean your family is feed’. This little blurb has been coming to mind a lot more of late… as my dishwasher has been broken for months now.
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So here is a little note to let you know I am still around. It has been a mild and cozy winter. The new cat in the family seriously adds to the cozy factor as only a snuggly, soft, purr happy kitty can. Been cross country skiing a lot more this year and enjoying so much time at home, organizing and trying to stream line the family life, if you will 🙂
