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Puddle Post

by admin on February 13, 2010 in Bits Of My Personality, Holiday Messages, My Year of Right Sacrifice-TIME with 2 Comments
I’m the puddle… puddle of emotions and that is ok.
(My Surprise Roses!)

After a blessed evening with friends I was hit with a good dose of self pity and self esteem bashing, inflicted by myself alone. My friends, my loved ones are to kind to ever be a real part of such a pitiful party. And so, in this mood I sat up way to late… long into the night…

How does he know? I ask that not actually meaning it… for I know he knows my heart and is closer then a brother…

Today I awoke to a message of love from my friend.
Today I was given beautiful roses from my neighbor lady.
Today I was listened to by my dear sister, my dear friend.
Today I got alone time with each of my children and saw so much in them.

Today I got over myself as I saw each little gift from my Father in heaven.

(So often I catch him proving how fast he is growing up and how big he is… BUT now and then there are glimpses of my little man, reminders of my first baby boy and they make my heart feel squished in a good way. This picture was a heart squisher moment)

Jesus is so good to me.
Is it ridiculously silly to say he is the best Valentine ever? He knew exactly what I needed!

TTFN

Princess Dreams

by admin on February 11, 2010 in Bits Of My Personality, Mama Heart Mushings, My Romance with 5 Comments

My girls are such a refreshingly feminine influence on me! As we talk about Mom and Dad’s renewal ceremony this spring they have such fun ideas. When they noticed I had flowers in my hair the first time they had to know if they could do that this time. The conversation lead to headdresses and I am so excited that they want to have so much fun with this!

They are hoping us three girls can have floral head dresses instead of bouquets. Perhaps this is a grand idea since we will be holding hands as we walk up. So now I am looking all over the Internet for ideas! They also want their hair done up (me too!) and so we are looking for something that makes your hair look really good too!

This one looks like a bouquet on your head! Lol, I actually kinda dig it!
Keeps your hands free!

This is the fairy head dress!
PRETTY!

Oh this is elfish!
Getting in touch with my Celtic side!

This one has a lovely look to the back!
Ribbons might make it better!

Perhaps this one is just right!
Perhaps…

I am no Martha Stewart so I wonder where you buy such a thing?

TTFN

Getting Over It

by admin on February 11, 2010 in Bits Of My Personality, Book Flavor, My Romance with 2 Comments

So I had to spend most of the day trying to shake off the story of ‘Tess’ and her demise. I was succeeding by reminding myself that the author was sending a message, a good message through this story…

Looking for comfort I told my husband about the books end. I expressed how it had really upset me. He smiled wrapped me in his arms and said ‘Come here and let me comfort you over a person who didn’t even exist.’ Oh my temper flared and I wanted to slap him… but the flash of anger was cooled by his good natured laugh at my expense and I left the room instead.

I need a more cheerful classic novel now, to sooth my readers heart.

TTFN

My Frozen Neighborhood

by admin on February 10, 2010 in Bits Of My Personality, Life Keeps Changing with 1 Comment
Walks on a winter morning such as this can’t be long enough.
I am blessed even in the midst of winter.Sound

Nothing but the crunching of my boots.
It was so quiet and still that the crunch was pounding in my ears.
The world was strangely quiet, even in this city of mine, no wind, no voices, no bird calls.
The air, thick with a slight fog, seemed to block all proof of other creatures being in existence.

Sight
Other then the sluggish smoke coming from my neighbors roof tops, I felt like the only moving piece of matter.
The sky, trees and houses, and ground all blended together in a union of frozen color.
Frost covered even the ever greens enough to make me feel like I saw in one color alone, the hue winter.
Isn’t it amazing how you never get tired of the same old seasons if you take the time to closely observe!?
Winter seems hauntingly still but the seasons are never motionless.
They are always in the process of change.
They barely arrive and place their grip firmly on the world when they start their departure. Frost will return again next year and it will decorate my neighborhood much in the same way it has this year.
And yet, I will have to stop and look at it.
And Winter will again move me.

TTFN

Note To Self

by admin on February 9, 2010 in Bits Of My Personality, Book Flavor, My Romance with 1 Comment

Do not read the sad parts of a classic novel late at night… Stayed up way to late, struggling to see the words in the light of my tiny Avon purse shaped lamp, so as not to bother my husband. Made the mistake of peeking at the next chapter in ‘Tess of the D’Urbervilles’ as my man turned off his lamp for the night and then I couldn’t go to sleep without finding out the heart wrenching result of her confessing her past to her new husband…

This note to self is particularly relevant considering the novel. You shouldn’t read about ‘Tess’ at all after dark… not if you can get as easily emotional after dark as I can…

“The night came in, and took up its place there, unconcerned and indifferent; the night which has already swallowed up his happiness, and was now digesting it listlessly; and was ready to swallow up the happiness of a thousand other people with as little disturbance or change of mien.”
Quote from Phase the Fifth, The Woman Pays; ‘Tess of the D’Urbervilles‘

IF YOU DO you may cry really hard, tears and all… then you may shut the book with a determined thud, as if to express your frustration to the author, hoping the thud will vibrate through time and thud Thomas Hardy up side the head, then you may dwell on all things sad that come to mind till you can’t sleep…

Thank the Lord for a husband in such a crisis as this! A hug and the assurance of his presence was comfort enough for me to put aside ‘Tess’ and her bitter story for the night… Though sound asleep and oblivious to my situation his very existence was romantic in such a moment!

Timing is everything with a good classic novel… no worries, it is worth the read so I will pick it up again with my afternoon tea. During the little ones nap time I will rock in my favorite chair and sit in the sun while I read, for the sun will be there as emotional support!

TTFN

A Grand Change in Cultural Expectations Of Men

by admin on February 5, 2010 in Bits Of My Personality, Do I Call It Parenting Advice?, Life Keeps Changing, Mama Heart Mushings, My Romance with No comments

Reading classic novels is something I truly enjoy. On that note, many classics leave me with a dark frame of mind and today I needed to share a thought that came out of reading a few. I am thankful things have changed, in the area of human rights. I find often, more in books written by male authors, that children and especially babes are seen as of little consequence. One author explained ‘the baby was barely a few days old, certainly not old enough to be given the turn individual’… Oh man… I have a totally different view of the value of life. I suppose the fact that many children didn’t survive into adult hood back then played a part in the often cold written references to children… but… It made me think that the old fashioned habit of men having little to do with babes wasn’t a good thing.

I am so thankful my man has so much to do with our little ones… he works hard to contribute to their basic needs and excels at providing their love and fun needs. When I watch him with my babies I adore him! I am thankful that my Saviour has blessed me with a man who can take MUCH time for his kids and I realise all to many Dad’s just aren’t there…

It also made me think of the true depths love goes down into a woman’s heart, specifically when it comes to her children. They don’t have to be of a specific age, we can learn to claim them in our hearts before they are even born. We feel so vulnerable with them walking around, our heart divided up and openly exposed to the pain and hurt in the world…

I am so thankful it is now okay and ‘in fashion’, if you will, for men in our current age to embrace that same connection with their young children.

TTFN

Thoughts From My Cozy Spot

by admin on February 2, 2010 in Bits Of My Personality, People In My Heart with 1 Comment


My rocking chair and ottoman are waiting for me… waiting for me to put my feet up and drink my creamy tea, eat my sandwich and just sit! Started reading ‘Tess of the D’Urbervilles’ yesterday. I love classic novels and there are so many I haven’t read yet! I might sit and read about Tess or I might continue reading the chapter in Leviticus I am trying to work through… I might just fall asleep.

Don’t worry about tomorrow for today has troubles of its own… Tomorrow is my monthly trip to Costco, thankfully the kids are having a play date while I go. The next day I need to make 8 loaves of bread… today… today I am gonna sit (now that I am done wee college for the day).

I am so tired that every time I sit down to blog about the important stuff going on my eyes start to hurt. I have been staying up late way to often lately, and missing my naps… Two new people, important people, have appeared in my world and they come with questions and emotions and we, who are involved, are all trying to digest it all slowly and embrace the wonder of it all. Perhaps I will share more in the future but right now it still feels bigger then life!

But for now I will sit in my cozy spot, snack, read perhaps, and think quiet thoughts (kids are napping and the phone turned off) until I drift off into a delicious nap!

TTFN

B.F.F. Cook Books!

by admin on January 26, 2010 in Bits Of My Personality, Domestic Damsel, People In My Heart with 2 Comments

If you find the right cook book it can complete you (wink). I have a few old faithfuls, warn and stained but so loved! Amongst this respected collection is a work put together by the woman’s ministry team at my old church in Waldheim, and another is from Grandma Hicks, made by an organization she was part of. I adore my ‘Meno‘ books; one was sold at Ten Thousand Villages years ago and is called ‘More With Less’, the second was my Grandma Smith’s and it is called ‘Food that Really Schmecks‘. Company’s Coming series is always great too! I have many prettier books but these ones have proven themselves above and beyond!

Today I was blessed by a package in the mail box! I love receiving packages, especially surprise ones! Inside was a lovely copy of ‘Deceptively Delicious’ from my sister Casey. I had been eyeing up this lovely book for a while now but kept putting off buying it, so I was thrilled to receive a copy. The concept is simple, mix in surprise elements to your cooking that make the meal delicious but very healthy! With Baby Boys anti-veggie-super-powered-tongue in full gear of late I have become very sneaky already… grating carrots into tomato sauce or meat loaf, even gone as far as adding pureed veggie soups to his smoothies! However, I am always in need of more ideas so I am excited to crack open this book and learn some new tricks! It is like welcoming a new friend into my home. If it proves faithful the book can remain on the self of respect along with my other ‘bff‘ cook books

THANK YOU so very much dearest CASEY! I appreciate your thoughtfulness so very much!

TTFN

I Am From!

by admin on January 26, 2010 in Better Check Out Blogs, Better Check Out Links, Bits Of My Personality, Life Keeps Changing, People In My Heart with 5 Comments

For E-Mom… This is the best I could do, thought about it for a few days and when you commented today I thought I should just put it up…

I am from cheese cloth, from co-op freshie and early’s seeds.

I am from the forest; a sleepy, weedy creek meandering towards my future.

I am from the bed rock, the wild pink rose.

I am from evening family Bible studies, days full of milking goats, chopping wood, harvesting corn and fire-y tempers;

From Robin and Katherine and Nanny.

I am from big talkers, and bigger singing voices!

From ‘you alone decide you will be happy’ and ‘family must work and play together’.

I am from Holy Ghost filled folk, revival tent meetings and Bible thump’n, Jesus lov’n parents!

I’m from the great white north, Scottish pride, Irish wit, Welsh respect and a little English that they will not admit, shortbread like grandma always made it and pans of venison lasagna from my mom’s heart to our stomachs shined at every occasion, especially my wedding!

From the grandmother who was the first in town to wear pants and the mother who traded in her high heals and comfy bank job for the army. Grandmother was a feminine tomboy and down right practical. Her garden boots just went better with pants! Mother had a lot to prove due to her small size and reputation as a girly-girl, no one would dare call either that now!

I am from Grandma Smith’s quilt on my couch, Her earrings in my jewelry box, Mom’s red dress coat in my closet and anything else that speaks to me of the strong women in my line. They speak, reminding me to be as brave and determined as my grandmother, as open and true as my mom and as beautiful in spirit as my daughters.

TTFN

Smothered

by admin on January 25, 2010 in Bits Of My Personality, My Year of Right Sacrifice-TIME with 2 Comments
My world has been completely smothered in snow.
Out in to this chilled white world I go,
I go to shovel the walk with nothing but my thoughts
To find those long forsaken spots
In my head, in my heart, finding warmth amidst the cold,
Surrender time to my Savior, love and passion so bold,

Bold as my white world smothered in snow.

TTFN

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