Life is Push-y

IT IS DECEMBER!  Oh my, I just keep looking back to post on here and that wasn’t my plan.  I usually write to work through my present ‘mind stuff’ but to be straight with you… a touch of anxiety mixed with laziness has given me a bad case of the ‘I don’t cares or think I shouldn’t care… or should I care…’ about this blog.  So maybe my next post will be a run down about our autumn.  Today I am going to spill a little of myself.

I have felt so pushed…so shoved around… that I often just want to dig my feet in and not think about or do anything…  I have come to a point of honestly… change is relentless and life IS change… life is always changing and changing is pushy and pushy means I don’t know if I am ever confident with how things are going before that stage is gone and here I am being pushed to grow up, show up and be changed.

How can life feel like one big constant state of ‘the waiting game’ and learning how to be patient while at the same time change and rush and push?

TIME!

Thanks a lot time!

Thanks so much for rushing at me, over me, past me.

For godliness with contentment is great gain.

~1 Timonthy 6:6~

The more I remember Holy Spirit is closer then a brother… and invite him into my internal conversation… the more life seems to slow down.  Years ago I learned the value of thankfulness, praising out of thankfulness no matter what life LOOKED LIKE at the time… I started practicing that with the baby steps of looking for the delightful littlest things in each day… I have a whole blog category called ‘little things’ that as I snooped through I could see I was genuinely working on having a right perspective on life, and life defined as my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ.  Sometimes I get so pushed I let myself get ahead of not only myself but Holy Spirit (for he is in me) and that means I am getting ahead of the lamp at my feet and the GOD, Jesus, who wants me to stayed armored up and in him.

And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you,

he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies because of his Spirit who lives in you.

~Romans 8:11~ 

So how does one start pushing back?  The introvert in me used to take over and hide… cancel… chop my schedules and plans up to almost nothing…  I have learned it is far more effective, and less extreme if I don’t go with my habitual fear based clean sweep but instead surrender all the rush and push to Christ instead.  I have experienced the pushing let up, fall away, and loose all strength over me when I direct my obedience FIRST back to Jesus and away from my desires and the desires of those around me… even away from those who really do need me, like my husband and kids.  Being in the now has become cliché but also remains a legitamitly healthy goal.  The more centered on Christ I am the more ‘in the now’ I am.  Being present, and in that PLACE, leads to me being clearly more balanced in my approach to life, myself and others 🙂  That place is at the feet of my Jesus!

Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.

~Ephesians 6:13~

Let me dive into another cliché and express how true it is that life is a collections of storms about us, hurricanes even.  Everything is going to be alright (yet another cliché but these are all for me if not for anyone else today) and I am just going to STAND in Jesus in spite of how very pushy life is.

HALLELUJIAH!

TTFN

Always Lady Mac an Rothaich